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Sea Spray Blue, I guess you could say, is what truly, I think, began the “thaw”. That and your lovely stories and advice and encouragement (oh good grief, here I am, starting to tear up AGAIN, but this time they are relieved, happy tears…)
To start over, Erick painted the majority of our kitchen/dining room/living room on Monday (the aforementioned blue), and since then I’ve felt the tiniest little flicker of “I think I can really, really like this house” begin to break through. Sounds crazy, but this morning in the shower it occurred to me that purchasing this house is almost like an arranged marriage (stay with me), in that we “married” it out of practicality, (and definitely have no choice but to be committed), not out of smitten love and devotion, but because it was what seemed best for us at the time. And, you know, just as you can slowly learn to love a person (even if it isn’t necessarily of your choosing), I am downright determined that I am going to Love this house. Love it. Pour my dreams into it. I’m looking every day for the good things about it. The apple tree in the front yard that have given the boys limitless hours of apple-throwing entertainment. The brand new windows. The “smallness” (less to clean). The very, very bright stars at night, because we live on a hill and out of the reach of the town’s lights. The feeling of being in a treehouse when I look out the windows from our bed in the morning. Unlike a marriage, we probably won’t be here forever, but the time we spend here will be good.
So I’ve begun a happy turn-around, truly. I have had moments of turn-around, but I think this time it is for good. (And now that it is in writing, I can’t take it back!) And it’s not only about the house, but it is about other aspects, too. About my time-management. About my friends (I know, I’ve neglected you horribly, haven’t I?!) About organization. About my little etsy business, which I have seriously put on the back burner, but about which I have such a fun idea, one that I have been sitting on for years, one that I really, really want to act on, and soon. About my adorable boys and amazing husband who deserve a clean house, a resting place, a good meal every evening, right away. So today begins a new chapter. It’s 10:38 am, so I’m going to wrap this up, and since the kids are at Grammy’s today, I’m going to finish painting the kitchen, clean like a mad-woman, and then plan a decent dinner for this evening. Oy, I’ve got to get busy.
And you will hear more from me! I miss regular blogging!
Let the painting commence. This house is going to be awesome.
Roberta said:
Hey, sweetie. Care to return the favor? I’m feeling pretty low lately. Money is non-existent, I have bills flying out of the wazoo, and I’m glued much of the day to the house with a tiny one that eats and eats. I’m usually really good out pulling myself up by my own bootstraps, but the fact that I’m often really tired makes it hard. So, if you could send some prayers and good thoughts my way, that would be lovely.
I am so happy that you are finding peace in your home and seeing it for its potential. I love how you always find a way to see the sun through the clouds. I love you.
Roberta said:
Did I ever tell you how blessed I feel that you are my friend? Well, I am.
Nicole said:
So get stuff done yes but take some time to do something fun for you!
laura @ the shorehouse said:
Aw, see…much better. 🙂 And that whole tree house thing? WOW! What’s not to love. I agree…It’s a total roller coaster this home owning stuff…
Here’s to your awesome house!
cais said:
so glad to see you’re feeling better! ❤
Kristin said:
Home ownership is a love/hate relationship. We’re in our “forever” home and I have days when I feel like you feel.
And sometimes it’s so hard to get rid of the blues. I’m fighting that these days myself.
Keep smiling!
Samantha said:
I think if our lives were easy and perfect and we were always happy then we would be bored. Getting these moods that we get in is normal, it’s important not to always be in those foul moods and that’s what I like about this post. Good for you and try to keep smiling and when are you going to post some more pictures. We want to see how beautiful you guys are making this house.